Readers have written about feeling sad for me because I had to leave MsTioga behind. It's true! I did have to leave MsTioga in a Bakersfield, California towing yard. Not only was MsTioga left in that towing yard, but pretty near everything that I possessed was left in that towing yard as well.
When the ambulance took me away from that field alongside Interstate #5, all that I had were the clothes on my back, my wallet and iPhone. Thank God that I had my wallet and iPhone!
Maybe it seems strange, but I did not feel sad about losing all of my stuff. However, I had a lot more than "stuff" to concern myself. I had a bad heart. And with my upcoming open heart surgery, I had no way to attend to MsTioga and all the things of mine inside her.
Several days after my open heart surgery, I was released from the hospital. I then made the decision to do my initial recovery in a Bakersfield hotel room. In that hotel room I had only one responsibility. I had to rest and take care of myself.
You may recall that after a few days staying in that hotel recovering, I used a taxi to take me back to see MsTioga. But I had no ability to rescue all of the stuff inside MsTioga. In my post operation condition, how could I do that rescue?
As the days passed, I was amazed to find out that leaving all my stuff behind was not so tough on me. After all, everything that I left behind was only stuff. MsTioga was dead. No use grieving over her.
And then it came to me that I had a fantastic opportunity ahead in my life. A chance to remake myself in a whole new life. Unencumbered by any stuff from my old life. Wow! Pretty neat, huh?