Wednesday, March 15, 2017

Losing it



How Do You Know?

This Blog post is about my mind. Or, better said, about losing it. Here is what is going on.

Lately I seem to be making decisions that do not work out well. As a result, I am more and more reluctant to make decisions. And one of the big decisions that I have coming up, is about leaving Lone Wolf.

Here at Lone Wolf, I am able to go along without getting into trouble. There are no big decisions for me to make while I am living here.

However, my plan to go off and fulltime in Scampy is concerning me a great deal. Because while living in Scampy, I will be confronted with tons of decisions every day.

When I am off someplace with Scampy, and have trouble with making good decisions, that might be a very bad thing for me!

What is going right for me?
Physically, I am doing great. No aches. No pains. Going to 24 Hour Fitness regularly keeps me in good shape.

Do you remember when I Blogged about having trouble walking because my balance was going bad? I still have some balance problems. But these are greatly reduced. I am walking OK and am able to walk in a straight line. Not side to side as before. Maybe going to 24 Hour Fitness has helped with my balance?

Financially, I am doing good also. I believe that I've got enough $dough$ to be OK for many years.

Conclusion
I am coming to the decision that at this time, that I should not be challenging myself with a Scampy trip.

I do not know what is going on with me mentally. Maybe over time, the answer to the question, "Am I losing it?" will come to me.



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36 comments:

  1. George,
    Thank you for making the decision to take it slower. You and I are about the same age and I understand when ideas flash through and then change and then change again. We know what used to be fun and we long for it but it's not always wise to pursue them...
    Glad you're taking your time to get everything straight in how you feel,
    Larry

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    1. Thank you for your understanding! 😎

      George


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  2. Scampy will be there when you want to get away for a short trip but Lone Wolf is your castle. The best of both worlds.

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    1. Hi Squire,

      "My castle."

      I like that thought!

      George


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  3. You are having a wonderful conversation with yourself. And best yet... You are listening. I admire your honesty.

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    1. Thanks, Dirk!

      It took awhile for me to tune-into what was happening. I got lucky and found out.

      George


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  4. Decisions and what-ifs are the difference between an interesting day and a mundane day.

    "Dont let the fear of would could happen make nothing happen"

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    1. Hi Andrew,

      I agree. Not a good thing to let being afraid in on my decision making.

      However, things have changed for me. I am a lot older now than when I was RVing with MsTioga. I cannot do the things that I used to do. I gotta accept that and let it go.

      George

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  5. I believe your doubts are valid George. While Scampy provides a place to sleep, comparing it to Ms Tioga is quite a stretch. After all, Tioga really is Twayler, only with an engine. I think your 3-4 short trips with Scampy are ideal. But whatever you decide, have fun doing it!

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    1. Hi Bill,

      I've been thinking the same stuff as in your comment.

      It may be that buying Twayler and then Scampy was not a good decision for me. A replacement MsTioga may not have been right for me either.

      But now I have a fulltime life coming up for me at Jojoba Hills. Was that a good decision for me? Only time will tell.

      George

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  6. There is nothing wrong with thinking about something (dreaming dreams) and then making a decision about it, and then with time and thought, changing your mind about it. This is how rational and well-thought-out decisions are made. Only you know your own limitations.

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    1. Hi Scott,

      I agree with your comment.

      However, what I may not have made clear in my Blog post [above] is that it took me weeks to come to the conclusion in today's Blog post.

      Sitting on that decision for so long took me into a place with a lot of anxiety. That's not a good place to be. It's like like quick-sand. Keeps getting deeper and deeper.

      Thank G-d that I somehow figured it out.

      George

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  7. George, the simple fact that you can reason out a potential major change in your life tells me you are mentally sound. You are very aware of the realities of life and use your reasoning like any mature adult. If what I have said is losing it, then all mature adults have lost it! If you have been following every day a healthy routine, then the only thing to delete from your life is worrying so much. Spend that worrying time doing things with your friends.

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    1. That's good advice, Dee, about my mental soundness. Thank you!

      I should quit worrying and let my decisions come to me in their own good time.

      It was the length of time that it took me to come to the decision in this Blog post, that got to me. And that's why I began to consider that I was losing it.

      It took me much too long!

      George

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  8. I think your logic is perfectly sound-- you're not losing it at all! Just being aware of your physical day to day needs, and adapting as they may change. Even if you stay based at Lone Wolf, there's certainly nothing to prevent you from taking a few fun road trips with Scampy to some new places. Everyone needs a vacation from their main homes at times, be they sticks-n-bricks or Twaylers! But, being constantly on the move, trying to find a new place to stay each night, navigate unfamiliar roads, find your way around a new grocery store in every new town, etc-- that part of full-time RVing can get really old really fast. It can be very welcoming to come back home to familiar surroundings (or stay parked in the same place) after a few weeks. Certainly nothing wrong about that!

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    1. Hi Lynne,

      Thank you soooo much for your "...perfectly sound..." comment. 😎

      Did you follow me when MsTioga was my RV? From 2003 to 2013 I found a Nite Camp every nite. Almost always "on-the-move." As I remember, this part of my RVing life was not difficult for me. MsTioga was a comfortable, complete home. Lots of room.

      Quite different with Scampy who is also a complete home [kitchen, sink, dining table bed, shower, toilet]. But Scampy is only 10 feet inside length. While MsTioga was 20 feet inside length. HUGE comfort difference.

      I may have made a mistake when I bought Twayler and Scampy. Perhaps something like MsTioga would have been much better.

      It is my age and the RVs that I now own that make RVing as I used to do so difficult.

      George


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  9. Go slow, stay safe and trust your gut feeling about what direction to take.

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    1. Hi Sheila,

      I will definitely follow your comment/suggestion!

      George

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  10. Sure you could be finding it harder to make travel decisions lately. You and I are at an age when that could happen. But it could also be that you have so many alternatives of what you can do that makes it difficult. Stay home in a trailer, travel with a trailer, boondock or stay at rv parks. Motel it some where, train somewhere. There are a lot of people in our age group that don't have your advantages. If you have difficulity in figuring out what to do, one could consider it a blessing, right?

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    1. Hi David,

      Yes! You are sooooo right!


      At my age, I definitely have advantages that many persons in my age-group do not have. Sometimes when I am focussing on problems, I fail to recognize that.

      George


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  11. Scampy is very patient. Wait until you feel better about heading out. Make realistic plans for your trips. maybe out to the coast or up to the mountains. Make the
    trip and then come "home". Make them as short or as long as you want and rest up between them as long as you want. You are a competent adult and can do whatever you want, there is no one you have to please except yourself! We are all getting older, relax and enjoy it!

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    1. Hi Croft,

      Your comment, it seems to me, is good advice. Short trips.

      I have gone down to the San Diego area for a relatively short trip. And it went well.

      George


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  12. George
    Maybe you should make your Scampy trip a series of mini trips.
    Fine a state park campground and check in for a week. Explore the area using your car until your feel ready to move on.
    Keep repeating the cycle. Campground, explore and move on.
    I envy your spirit and wish you well in your next journey.

    Nick

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    1. Hi Nick,

      I very likely will do what your comment suggests.

      Now that I have decided to remain at Lone Wolf, the pressure that was messing up my mind is gone. Thank G-d!

      George


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  13. Summers are so hot these days I would want to be in an air conditioned home for the summer, and take some nice road trips of a week or so in the fall when it's cooler and good boondock spots would work well.

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    1. Hi Sondra,

      There are nearby mountains where it may be cool. Even during the summer months. Also, by the Pacific Coast it will be cooler.

      George


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  14. I really liked your idea of living in Ms Twayler and just using Scampy for short trips. Maybe if you camp where there are others it will give you the security to trust your decisions, at least while you are doubting yourself. Best of luck to you, George. P.S.My daughter was just asking about you at lunch today. I used to tell her your adventures when I had my Tioga "Lucy".

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    1. Hi Mary,

      I bought Twayler and Scampy with the idea that I would be living at Jojoba Hills Escapee Park.

      When I actually got on the Jojoba Hills wait-list, I was #34. That was a surprise. The last time I checked, I was #20. That was in January.

      I do not know where I am on the list now. I'm waiting for Jojoba to contact me when I am at the top the list. Instead of phoning them every month.

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  15. Mr. George, I am a firm believer that when a person has thoughts such as they've made bad decisions, they are going over so many 'what ifs' in future plannings and such, I really think for most of us it is the perfect time to just stop where we are for a while. We can't change the past and we can't control future happenings. I ask God every morning to put me where I need to be that day, and pray that he will have his hand on my shoulder when I need that helping hand during the day. If you are not comfortable right now about going off in Scampy then don't do it. What has been bought can be sold, what is missed in life can be replaced with something else, so much can be remedied if needed. I think camping/boondocking was the hardest thing I had to give up when circumstances made it impossible to go anymore. Now I camp with my daughter during the cooler months in a tent, and that was so very hard to get used to after having a class-B (camper van), at sixty-six years old it's hard for me to get up off that tent floor, but it is the only was I can go now and my daughter and grand-daughter are there to help me up (with a lot of laughs going on) Your choices were right for you at the time you made them, and any choices you make from here on will be the right ones. You'll definitely make the right choice(s) just give your self some time and breathing room. I think you've done an excellent job so far. Keep on working out at your gym and let 'later' take care of itself for a little while. Then start planning again after a good rest from the worries you may be having right now. No decisions have to be made today or tomorrow even! My best to you~

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    1. Hi RoadRunner,

      I enjoyed reading your comment!

      You are only 66 years old. When I began fulltiming in MsTioga, I was 66 years old. That was in 2003.

      I had soooo much energy back then. And, I did not appreciate having all that energy back then as much as I should have.

      Now I am in my 80th year. Much harder for me to do things. For example, going underneath my RV to do servicing jobs is just about impossible now.

      Even filling up the air in a tire is really hard. Because I am not able to just squat the way I did when I was younger. I have to go down on my hands and knees, or use a small stool to sit on.

      But I am much more fortunate physically than many men my age. Because I work out at 24 Hour Fitness every other day.

      George


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  16. Hi George.
    Your blog has opened my eyes a lot and thanks for posting about age related things. My Mom recently turned 80. This past Christmas I noticed that she steadied herself by placing a hand on a table when she got up from a chair before walking to her destination. I noticed a "hurry-cane" leaning in the corner by her bed. She had recently been asking me to do things for her and makes her appointments so there is no chance of having to drive at night. She recently asked about Uber (ride sharing program) as she was starting to feel uncomfortable driving even in the day. Most recently she fell for a phone scam and sent $2000 to the scammer. That is what surprised me the most because she would have never done that a few years ago.

    I am 56 so am no spring chicken. I now make it a point to be sweet when she asks for help. I seriously had become so accustomed to her self sufficiency all these years that I did not realize she had gotten up in age. We will all get there for sure. I told mom about your blog and she said she will check it out.

    As for the outing. Your mind and body will tell you which direction to go. If you can do it safely, go play.

    Steve.

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  18. You have good and thoughtful friends here in Blogland. I agree with all of the comments. I was concerned when I read your plans a few days ago. I just turned 81 years old and could not imagine trying to find a different night camp every night. I am very glad you reconsidered. Enjoy the trips you take and hopefully Jojoba will come through soon but where you are now seems very comfortable too. Good luck :-)

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    1. Hi Vera,

      It's been difficult for me to transition from being an active RVer to an RVer who is staying in one RV park.

      George


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  19. George, I have always liked the way that you share your 'thoughts'. We all share what we think with friends/relatives and get feedback which helps us make decisions.
    To me, you are in great health for your age. At 58, I hope to be in the same shape as you at 80!
    I think making small trips in Scampy will fill your need to explore and then go back to Twayler. You have made new contacts with family/relatives/friends that will keep you busy.

    Take care and safe travels!
    Mark in Palm Springs

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