Thursday, October 07, 2010

Accepting your decision

7AM - Accepting your decision
Dear David,
This morning I was outside sweeping up the area alongside the garage where you used to keep the trash barrels.  The homeowner's association sent a letter asking that the trash barrels be moved out-of-sight of the street.  So, I moved the barrels thru the gate where they not visible to comply with that letter.

While sweeping I was thinking about you. It came to me that I was NOT thinking about you right. I was thinking that you had made a dreadful mistake by going away and that sooner or later you would come to your senses and return home. In a way, I was judging you and what you had done. Wow!

Right then and there I decided that I would not do that anymore. From now on I would let you own this decision to go away. You are your own person, mature, extremely capable. Your life is your own, to do with what you wish.

Right after I made this decision, I felt soooooo much better. Emotionally, I was lifted up. And I knew in my heart that wherever you are right now, whatever you are doing now, you are OK.

I love you David,

7:30PM - Dear friends,
Late this afternoon a Concord police officer drove up to my son David's home to deliver bad news. My son David is dead.  That is all that I am able to tell you now.  I am too distraught to write more.  I likely will not be writing in my blog for awhile.

Please pray for the soul of my wonderful son David.  I miss him more than I can possibly say.

Bye for now,

David G. Lehrer
Born September 21, 1964
Died September 20, 2010

At the pool he built and loved in his backyard

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