Wednesday, December 22, 2010

Giving up

Giving up!
Is it OK to give up on life?  To check out.  To come to a point where living is just too much bear, and taking our own life becomes an option?  I do not write here this morning pretending to know the answer.  However, it has become clear to me that I must address "Giving up!", if I am to give perspective to myself when thinking of the suicide of my son, Dave.

When I was in my cancer support group back in 2002-2003, there were group members of mine who suffered a great deal.  Some kinds of cancers produce incredible pain.  The families of some of these members suffered even more than the cancer victim.  Especially when that victim would not give up.  Not accept the fate of cancer.  Not accept dying as an option.  Instead, clinging to any possible cure, no matter how impossible that cure might be.

I cannot judge those cancer group member's decision to not give up, and thus, give relief to their family.   I cannot judge my son Dave for giving up, when from my perspective he had so much to live for.

However, I can accept these decisions as truly being an end that is the best for each of them.

Note: For some insight into one of Dave's major challenges with foster kids, click [here].

The Old Spaghetti Factory
Every time I read son Dave's blog, I learn something new.  On Wednesday, November 4th, 2009, Dave took his kids out for dinner at the Old Spaghetti Factory, in the City of Concord [link].

Dave wrote in that post, "I love their spaghetti with browned butter and Mizithra cheese, ala Homer. As they say, a toothsome treat for cheese lovers! I’ve never had pasta like that any place else" .

Today I am treating myself out for dinner at the Old Spaghetti Factory and I am ordering Spaghetti Mizithra!.

Yosemite National Park!
Guess where we are going tomorrow? Did you guess Yosemite National Park? Hmmmmmm? You are right on!

We have a reservation for one nite in gorgeous, Yosemite National Park! Double wow with sugar on it!

7AM - Weng & Francisco in Quartzsite!
Yes!  Weng and Francisco made it all the way to Quartzsite, Arizona!  And what a wild ride was part of today's journey!

A huge rainstorm came.  And Fish the RV sometimes plowed his way thru 2 feet of water while traveling on US #95, north of Quartzsite.  Weng told me that it is a good thing that Fish knows how to swim, because of all the flooding!  There were a couple of fuel filter change-outs.  Other than that, Fish the RV is doing fine.

When I spoke with Weng and Francisco a few minutes ago, they were just about to sit down to supper inside of Fish.  There is a McDonald's with WiFi near where the family is camped.  So, maybe this evening Weng will be able to update her blog.