Monday, April 04, 2011

Could not leave

6AM - Could not leave!
Just yesterday I told you that I was not going to blog.  But how could I do that?  You are such a big part of my life, and for so many years too!  How could I just walk away?   So, here I am back again.  Blogging.

The challenges of my life are much more complicated than I wrote in yesterday's post where I wrote of dread and panic.  What am I dreading?  What is putting me in a panic?  It is not feeling at home anyplace that I am!

For the past eight years I did feel at home at all of the places where I camped.  Apparently returning to David's home 2-3 times each year, restored me.  Recharged me.  So that I was able to leave David's home after a visit, go out all over the Western United States and Mexico and feel comfortable.  Feel at home anyplace I went.

After David died, somehow that feeling of being at home everywhere that I went was gone.  I found that I had to keep moving in order to feel right.  This scared the hell out of me.  And, I do not understand why!

9AM - City of Culiacan
I made a Nite Camp in the City of Culiacan yesterday.  If you look at my Google Map location, you may notice that MsTioga has moved quite a distance north from Aticama.  By traveling about 100 miles each day, we might be only six days from the USA border!

Clear sky