If you have been following my blog for awhile, you may have come to believe that I am a really weird guy. I know that I believe that!
Take what happened yesterday afternoon. MsTioga and I drove to David's house to drop off the stuff that came from the rental space. That rental place stuff was clogging up the inside of MsTioga. I plan to figure out what to do with all that stuff after my prostate operation next Tuesday.
Anyway, as I was driving to David's house, I thought to myself that maybe David is not really dead! Hmmmmm? Now this is really weird. Because I myself arranged for David's cremation. I myself met with the Calaveras County coroner. I myself picked up the certified death certificates. For God's sake, the forest ranger who found David showed me the place where he died!
Yet, here I was imagining that maybe David was not really dead. Maybe when I enter his house, I will surprise him with my appearance. What would he say to me? "Hi Dad! You are probably surprised to find me here! I can explain!"
I may be weird, but I am not delusional. I know that David is really dead. And, I am not depressed by that knowing anymore. In fact, I am able to think about David without getting depressed, the way that I used to get. Yet, when I walked thru the garage yesterday afternoon, and opened the door to enter the house, I sort of expected that David would be there. Really weird!
57°FPartly cloudy
